I hate 2011, please let this year pass faster.
I never knew my heart was ready to settle.
So many tough choices to make.
Some are painfully hard but you have to take it.
For I know things will never get better with blindless trust.
A vicious cycle.
You lost, found then lost again.
I don't have energy for these games anymore.
But sadly, most of the time I don't have a choice.
Cause I can't gain full control of my heart and brain.
I just wish I can shut certain part of it away and continue living.
It's just fucking hard.
That kind of expectation of life will kill me one day.
Or maybe killing me slowly.
Damn all the insecurities and fear.
They are nth but air, keep telling myself that.
Well, fuck this emo bug in me.
Move on now. Move on fast.